Wisp's face jerks up at that unhappily. Clearly, it had something to do with Fawn. "N - no," he says, trying to stare him down. "I'd rather no one else know, please."
Clearly. And Fawn was certainly going to ask, if not pull it from Wisp at some point. This? This might benefit from some patience.
He spreads his hands wide, plastering an amenable expression on his face. And he steps back aside, with a sweep of his arm towards the door and their brilliantly snappish dormmate. "Very well," And then... goes to one of the small chairs in the common room??? Leaving him unbothered and unforced??? "Since you asked so nicely."
What. WHAT. That was not what Wisp had expected? He had been so sure that a compulsion had been coming that he'd nearly strained a muscle in his neck bracing for it. And then it simply ... doesn't come? He just stares at the Bastard for a moment, trying to figure out what just happened.
"I - well - thank you," he says, still flabbergasted. "Aren't you going to take yours?"
"Quite welcome," that Bastard answers, politely. He pulls his own out of his pocket and turns it over. Which would it be, he wonders. There's a great deal he doesn't know of his life. The snake of trauma or a morsel of a world rich and apart from this one.
Well.. he does want to know. And frankly, if Wisp is going to try to kill him while distracted, it would be good to find out early.
"Who I am is still a mystery, isn't it? Well. Here's to clarity." He unfolds it and begins to read.
Wisp settles in to watch him, cursing his own curiosity, which will surely result in Bastard insisting that Wisp tell him about his own memory. But ... he is curious, and if he does see some hint, well. He'll take it.
As for the Bastard, he gets the following words:
The Statement of an Unknown Man extracted directly from the subject, recorded ??????, committed to memory by the Blank named Wisp Bastard, Day 1 of Cycle ?????, North Block. Regarding baked goods and gossip.
We had a ritual, you know? A - a rather nice one, or at least I thought it was. Started because we'd all been moved to the new Archivist and all had crap hours as a result. Plus, you know. New boss, bit of a bear, pretty dedicated to that whole "I'm in charge so I'm going to make sure you remember it" sort of thing. I really think it's nerves. Sasha said he was just a dick, but...
And the statement continues to describe the aforementioned ritual: getting up terrifically early to cook scones. The flat around him is small and frankly a bit shit, but it has an oven, and Bastard gets a very intimate knowledge of exactly how to cook scones properly, down to which flavours pair together well with which teas. The statement lingers for a bit on this tangent, then continues onto the workplace itself.
They make their little baked goods camp in what appears to be an Archive. Soon enough, he's joined by a (much hotter) guy complaining about the shit chairs in here, as well as a woman about his own age who makes grumbling comments about being assigned to the exact position she was turned down for. All three of them are content to pass around baked goods and complain about said who is this grossly incompetent weirdo who sent you, like, five times on the last statement because he didn’t get enough information each time. Tim (the hot one) is sure that (Jon) is just a masochist that gets off on making you go back for increasingly obscure factoids. Sasha thinks Jon's trying to throw his weight because he's insecure. And you ... are pretty sure that Jon doesn't actually know what he's doing or what he wants, but you feel something bright blooming in your chest anyway. A determination to do all you can to help him succeed. That's normal feelings towards a boss, right?
They have to hush quickly as the man himself walks by, though there wasn't really any need: (Jon) is thoroughly distracted by the files in his hands, glowering down at them. He looks different from Fawn: hardly any gray (if any) in his hair, no worm scars, no burn scars. Generally better put together too. You watch him pass, trying to suppress the small amount of heat rising to your cheeks.
... It was nice. To - to have those friendships. I really miss them.
It must be interesting to watch him. The fascination bridges into an earnestness that seems foreign on the man's face. Something of the edges around him ease a little as his posture droops, and his expression finds some fondness, if not a little longing.
It's hard to tell when he's done. Perhaps because the tangent about scones took quite some time to read, given how many paragraphs they involved, but he ends up staring down at the words, just... processing the answer to the question he'd had.
How long ago was it? Long enough for Fawn to go grey. That he was just... a new employee. So... open. Nervous, feeling in over his head. It seemed... remote. Far from how he felt now... and yet. Is it nostalgic to just learn it again?
But he'd certainly just relived it, it settled into his mind as if had always been there, an anchor to base the world upon.
His fingers find his own cheeks, still flush from that blossoming of affection, a determination to be of... assistance. Quaint. Irrelevant. Useless, beyond all else. Still.. it. Lingers.
Well, to one's own self be true.
He finds his own gaze slipping back to the doorway beyond Wisp, contemplative.
Wisp watches all of that with fascination, nearly entranced - only really startled when Bastard comes back out of it and looks ... right at Wisp. Oops.
"What - what was it?" he asks quietly, knowing damn well he has no right to. He's still curious. Especially given that ... blush? Why the hell would this Bastard blush.
Likely a horrifying, nefarious plot. That's the only real explanation. His gaze sharpens on Wisp and the Bastard raises a single perfectly arched brow.
"I don't believe you are entitled to that," he returns, folding his hands primly. "Unless you've a change of heart..."
Wisp flushes at that, not surprised, of course, but ... Frustrated with himself, honestly. "Fine. Fine. Tell me one thing about your memory and I'll tell you one thing about mine."
"Oh, simple enough. It would be such a shame to have a memory of great import matched with a feeble detail, like a statement such as 'I was wearing a nice warm coat that day.' Wouldn't you agree?"
He spreads his hands. "Not that I would think any of us would consider slighting each other."
The Bastard carefully folds his statement, arranging the creases to square to the edges perfectly. "But if one does, I believe something would be owed."
He looks Wisp straight in the eyes, with absolutely no hesitation or embarrassment. "Apparently, in my other life, I was quite keen on our Fawn." Though he presses a hand over his heart, mockingly, he... does cut an ever-so-brief speculative glance back towards the door.
"Well, specific detail for specific detail." He's quick to sink his teeth back in "What was the terrible thing you did?"
Incredible. He regrets this already. He - he shouldn't care what feelings anyone else has about Fawn, given he barely knows the man, but - his memory surges up like bile in his throat. He's mine, it whispers, with all the thrill and power and horror of truly feeling entitled to another person. (He can't see how it's real, given how little power he has in this dynamic. And yet ...)
He flushes, deeply.
"That's an obvious lie," Wisp snaps, not answering Bastard's question just yet. "You're entirely too old for him."
"Do you know? I will indulge this blatant bit of fishing."
With the way Wisp's expression hardens, flushes and tone cracks, whiplike...? Oh he couldn't resist, really.
"Apparently we were both in our better days. Hardly any grey in his hair, skin unblemished..." He shakes his head, watching Wisp in the corner of his eye. "A fling of my yesteryear?"
That ... is actually a fair point? He doesn't know how old Fawn is, and he does have a lot of grey in his hair ... Wisp flushes a bit as he mentally compares the two men. It's possible they're closer in age than he thinks.
But that thought does precisely nothing to lessen his hatred of the idea. Mine, the memory echoes, with a force that makes him clench the edge of his tunic with white-knuckled ferocity.
"I doubt it," he says, seething a little. And then - something else pops out. "He's mine, not yours."
He hadn't actually decided how he felt about that lingering, delicate feeling. It was an aberration, certainly, something soft in a mind and soul of edges. (And yet, it lingers, still persistent and unbendingly his.)
And this scrap of a whelp dares to trod there. It's not the laying of the claim, it's the denial of his that was odious.
His voice drops to a low, arctic cold and menace poisoning his tone, "Uphold your end of the deal, Wisp." There's no delicacy in this compulsion, it tears, searing him.
Wisp chokes as the compulsion tears into him quickly enough that he hardly has time to regret having said that last bit out loud. (He does, and will continue to regret it, but now he's distracted.) He hadn't precisely meant to deny Bastard, but. Here he is anyway.
"I - I know what scarred Fawn," he gasps after a moment, as the compulsion drags out more than he'd intended to give Bastard in the first place. "They were - they were these worms. And I was able to save him by turning on the fire suppression system, but I waited." He squeezes his eyes shut. "I needed to watch him get marked first."
With his eyes closed, Wisp only hears a sharp, inhaled breath from the Bastard.
It was... awe inspiring. Awful in the oldest terms of the word, to find something so twisted in one like this. What an expression of that possessiveness, to lay a claim like that.
(Even as some part of him twists, horror rooted in a compassion he didn't ... know he had. Could barely even identify. He wanted-)
He didn't think Wisp had it in him. His esteem rockets up by quite a few steps (and down, blackening in another. A minority in the considerations, for the moment).
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"And that thing was?"
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"Might I read it, then?"
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He spreads his hands wide, plastering an amenable expression on his face. And he steps back aside, with a sweep of his arm towards the door and their brilliantly snappish dormmate. "Very well," And then... goes to one of the small chairs in the common room??? Leaving him unbothered and unforced??? "Since you asked so nicely."
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"I - well - thank you," he says, still flabbergasted. "Aren't you going to take yours?"
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Well.. he does want to know. And frankly, if Wisp is going to try to kill him while distracted, it would be good to find out early.
"Who I am is still a mystery, isn't it? Well. Here's to clarity." He unfolds it and begins to read.
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As for the Bastard, he gets the following words:
The Statement of an Unknown Man extracted directly from the subject, recorded ??????, committed to memory by the Blank named
WispBastard, Day 1 of Cycle ?????, North Block. Regarding baked goods and gossip.We had a ritual, you know? A - a rather nice one, or at least I thought it was. Started because we'd all been moved to the new Archivist and all had crap hours as a result. Plus, you know. New boss, bit of a bear, pretty dedicated to that whole "I'm in charge so I'm going to make sure you remember it" sort of thing. I really think it's nerves. Sasha said he was just a dick, but...
And the statement continues to describe the aforementioned ritual: getting up terrifically early to cook scones. The flat around him is small and frankly a bit shit, but it has an oven, and Bastard gets a very intimate knowledge of exactly how to cook scones properly, down to which flavours pair together well with which teas. The statement lingers for a bit on this tangent, then continues onto the workplace itself.
They make their little baked goods camp in what appears to be an Archive. Soon enough, he's joined by a (much hotter) guy complaining about the shit chairs in here, as well as a woman about his own age who makes grumbling comments about being assigned to the exact position she was turned down for. All three of them are content to pass around baked goods and complain about said who is this grossly incompetent weirdo who sent you, like, five times on the last statement because he didn’t get enough information each time. Tim (the hot one) is sure that (Jon) is just a masochist that gets off on making you go back for increasingly obscure factoids. Sasha thinks Jon's trying to throw his weight because he's insecure. And you ... are pretty sure that Jon doesn't actually know what he's doing or what he wants, but you feel something bright blooming in your chest anyway. A determination to do all you can to help him succeed. That's normal feelings towards a boss, right?
They have to hush quickly as the man himself walks by, though there wasn't really any need: (Jon) is thoroughly distracted by the files in his hands, glowering down at them. He looks different from Fawn: hardly any gray (if any) in his hair, no worm scars, no burn scars. Generally better put together too. You watch him pass, trying to suppress the small amount of heat rising to your cheeks.
... It was nice. To - to have those friendships. I really miss them.
End statement.
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It's hard to tell when he's done. Perhaps because the tangent about scones took quite some time to read, given how many paragraphs they involved, but he ends up staring down at the words, just... processing the answer to the question he'd had.
How long ago was it? Long enough for Fawn to go grey. That he was just... a new employee. So... open. Nervous, feeling in over his head. It seemed... remote. Far from how he felt now... and yet. Is it nostalgic to just learn it again?
But he'd certainly just relived it, it settled into his mind as if had always been there, an anchor to base the world upon.
His fingers find his own cheeks, still flush from that blossoming of affection, a determination to be of... assistance. Quaint. Irrelevant. Useless, beyond all else. Still.. it. Lingers.
Well, to one's own self be true.
He finds his own gaze slipping back to the doorway beyond Wisp, contemplative.
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"What - what was it?" he asks quietly, knowing damn well he has no right to. He's still curious. Especially given that ... blush? Why the hell would this Bastard blush.
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"I don't believe you are entitled to that," he returns, folding his hands primly. "Unless you've a change of heart..."
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He spreads his hands. "Not that I would think any of us would consider slighting each other."
The Bastard carefully folds his statement, arranging the creases to square to the edges perfectly. "But if one does, I believe something would be owed."
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"Agreed," he says, arms folded over his chest. "Something - something relevant and descriptive."
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"Why were you blushing?" he blurts out instead.
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He looks Wisp straight in the eyes, with absolutely no hesitation or embarrassment. "Apparently, in my other life, I was quite keen on our Fawn." Though he presses a hand over his heart, mockingly, he... does cut an ever-so-brief speculative glance back towards the door.
"Well, specific detail for specific detail." He's quick to sink his teeth back in "What was the terrible thing you did?"
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He flushes, deeply.
"That's an obvious lie," Wisp snaps, not answering Bastard's question just yet. "You're entirely too old for him."
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With the way Wisp's expression hardens, flushes and tone cracks, whiplike...? Oh he couldn't resist, really.
"Apparently we were both in our better days. Hardly any grey in his hair, skin unblemished..." He shakes his head, watching Wisp in the corner of his eye. "A fling of my yesteryear?"
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But that thought does precisely nothing to lessen his hatred of the idea. Mine, the memory echoes, with a force that makes him clench the edge of his tunic with white-knuckled ferocity.
"I doubt it," he says, seething a little. And then - something else pops out. "He's mine, not yours."
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And this scrap of a whelp dares to trod there. It's not the laying of the claim, it's the denial of his that was odious.
His voice drops to a low, arctic cold and menace poisoning his tone, "Uphold your end of the deal, Wisp." There's no delicacy in this compulsion, it tears, searing him.
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"I - I know what scarred Fawn," he gasps after a moment, as the compulsion drags out more than he'd intended to give Bastard in the first place. "They were - they were these worms. And I was able to save him by turning on the fire suppression system, but I waited." He squeezes his eyes shut. "I needed to watch him get marked first."
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It was... awe inspiring. Awful in the oldest terms of the word, to find something so twisted in one like this. What an expression of that possessiveness, to lay a claim like that.
(Even as some part of him twists, horror rooted in a compassion he didn't ... know he had. Could barely even identify. He wanted-)
He didn't think Wisp had it in him. His esteem rockets up by quite a few steps (and down, blackening in another. A minority in the considerations, for the moment).
But now? Now he HAD something on the other man.
"Do you... regret it?"
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